Monday, January 2, 2012

无语

开始的时候总是客客气气的。
在一起久了,就便成理所当然了,说话的时候也不顾及对方的感受,言语中总带着伤人的字眼。
一句对不起也没有,因为对你而言,那不是伤人的语言。

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

春种一粒米,秋收万担虫

Sunday, March 6, 2011

音符响起
渐渐地想起和你的过去
很渴望再得到你的关怀

Friday, November 19, 2010

蜕变



这个地方每天都压得喘不过气
眼光越来越短浅
动作越来越拘束

像一朵花儿生活在不适合的气候下
怎么样都绽放不出它的光、彩和美
逐渐走向自我灭亡的地步
散发一股生硬的可亲气息

逃出封锁的四角墙
放大视野
解放自由

怎么样才能遇到伯乐
近3000年前的伯乐,如今还有伯乐吗?
“世有伯乐,然后有千里马。
千里马常有,而伯乐不常有。”

Thursday, September 23, 2010

挥霍

我好想好想大势的挥霍,把所有的钱用来装饰自己,让自己仅有的青春留点儿光彩。五彩缤纷、婀娜多姿,走起路来的嗒嗒声,总是令我幻想着那多一点的自豪是如此的神秘。这朴素的人生总该有个高潮吧……,也该有着可以让自己回味无尽的痛感。

……但又怕心会疼。

Thursday, June 3, 2010

妇人之道

学校是个口杂多是非的地方。
若不跟着潮水,你就可能成为大海干枯后的那一滴水。

要我掏出几个铜板,做为祝福,我非常愿意。
但是对某某妇人而言,又没什么可闲聊的。
所以送上祝福,也是多余的。

为何是强制性的?这一点也不明主。

Monday, November 30, 2009

迟来的假期



今天天气特别清爽。还有三天,三天就结束了。三天后,就是真真正正的假期了!真拭目以待。
再不放人,就不客气了。呵呵

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

heaven




How does it feel to meet the special someone who can (maybe) give you the same heartbeat as the previous relationship?

It could be another option to go thru another heartbreak.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

想喝咖啡

小气的女人,千万别得罪。
在老板办公室外工作的女人,更不可以得罪。
不然就请你和老板喝咖啡咯!
连小事都要请老板解决。
最近踩到狗屎了吗?
come'on, grow up.
Everything must report, report, report. SOP meh?

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

unhappy

Have I walked too close with my k lately? Somehow, I lost the air and the feel of my position. It's definitely nice to get hugs and wishes from them, but wonder, what kind of troubles am I getting myself into, by allowing them to talk to me at the level of a friend.
1) they walked over my authority
2) they throw tantrum when and ever they feel like so, without being respectful.
3) storming out with dignity without giving a shit of whoever is with them.

Today, I were somehow, kinda being blamed for one's they-thought-to-be-not-so-good-result, which is in fact a distinction. grrrr.....

Thursday, October 8, 2009

他静悄悄地走了
明年的新春再也见不到他了

Thursday, October 1, 2009

能放下的人

断了线的风筝
为何一直追寻

断了线的情感
为何一直执著

曾经的曾经
已无法再追回
执著只会让自己的伤痛更深

过去的欢笑
过去的默契
今天的回忆

只要不再提起
只要不再想起
伤口肯定
随风愈合

简简单单的字无法表达内心的话语
复杂的心情无法以简单的字来代替

人生自古谁无愁
能放下的人早已成仙了,不是吗?

Monday, September 21, 2009

等待爱



One mountain side with snowfall with an inch away from the fluffy clouds.
One mountain side with the greenery, where I just want to roll and roll on the patch and splash!!!


等待爱,舞进夏日的拥抱
阳光的微笑等着我

我却徘徊在阴霾的冬天
孤单地独自地
旋转在白色的忧郁
踏不出的第一步

他就在夏日迎接我
我依然原地踏步着
他伸出温暖的双手
我依然渴望再拥抱
我和你一次偶然的相聚

飘落的雪花
遍地的雪天使
我在这里等着你
这个冬天的惊喜已成了泡影

等待爱,我该向他奔去
还是等着我渴望的爱情

微笑的阳光
哭泣的天使
一季之差

走出阴霾的冬天
就能得到他说的幸福

Friday, September 18, 2009

Just one more time

I really enjoyed the conversation last night,
you make my laughters, you make my tears,
you brought my thinking to a new level,
remember the times we used to spend endless hours chatting together,
through the night til the day break in the wee,
wish we could have more of such fun moments...

Just one more time, it would be to hear your laughter,
Just one more time, it would be to give you a tight tight hug,
Just one more time, it would be to flashback the times we enjoyed in melbourne.
Just one more time, it would be to read my letters in the bathroom.

Remember to keep the bathroom spick and span, i am gonna spend a lot of time inside, banging.

Also, blog is an avenue for my bullshit and rubbish =)

Friday, August 21, 2009

today

Recently, I felt a tinge of sadness. But I can't find the source of my sadness. Work pressure? study stress? or is it due to the departure of a really nice friend today, that I felt my life has sunk into a total emptiness.

Though my pretty lecturer told me that I scored the highest in my class for my grammar analysis at 7pm today, I don't really felt the kind of excitement that I would have felt if I were younger, perhaps. One classmate came to congratulate me, but I just kinda brush it off in an abrupt way. Maybe she will feel that I am being yaya papaya or super HL.

Actually, how long does one need to take in order to forget a significant event or moment in one's life? or rather, erased it totally. 3 years? 5 years? or never? If there is really such a drink like "wang qing shui", wouldn't it be nice to take a sip, and choose to forget selective memories from our memory bank?

Saw from a Singapore version soap opera, u take 3 years to forget someone that you had once loved so madly, and to find another person. 1 and a half year more to go... well, maybe that is crapped. it just depends on who you meet at the right time, right place and with the right mood. And a "clear, healthy" heart in order to "see" him.

My blog, like my mood, is totally messy. I don't know what I am writing. There seemed to be no linking of thinking. Perhaps that is what I am right now. Wanting to explode, but shy to. Wanting to be silent, but unbearable to keep it down. Women are really complicated creatures, emotional creatures.

Everything is hard, struggling so hard, and fighting so hard to achieve something concrete. And yet, it may not even come true.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

想你

将手心中的沙子交给你是一辈子的幸福。

还是沙子,依然是,再一次握在手里,但已找不到同样的故事,也遇不到能让我心跳的你。

想着你,我又徘徊到曾留下我们脚印的沙滩。不知不觉,手指又轻轻地在沙堆里比画。如果我把双手交给你,我们是否幸福一辈子?这是一道难题吧。谁知道未来呢?连我也不曾有过答案。虽然如此,我还是傻傻地喜欢着你。开始的一切都好美好美,每天都如蜂蜜一样甜。什么时候,蜂蜜加了水,越来越淡,我们开始疏远了……

念着你,我又好渴望能和你再次联络。不知不觉,我想再一次找寻你,滑鼠很多次都停留在那儿,不敢再点击你的名字,我心里还有疙瘩吧。我晓得未来的事,我们之间已经有了答案,就是断讯。虽然如此,我还是傻傻地喜欢着你。结束的一切都好酸好酸,每天都如酸梅一样,时时刻刻,都难入口,越来越酸,我和你路人甲和乙……

想知道你现在在哪?我的心还荡漾着,我的爱还停留在海风轻吹的那晚。你给我的回忆都好美,好幸福。我不想忘记,更不想失去。你现在在世界的哪个角落呢?是否还是同一个星空下?放不下,真傻!我和你还是松开了双手,握不紧的沙子,就让它从指缝中流走吧。

Sunday, July 19, 2009

逃 - 送给哥哥

我逃不了 逃不出你的魅影
分分秒秒 感觉到你的呼吸
思念像班纳杜 如此上瘾
还是无法 制止思念你的痛
我什么都不想 什么都不要
只想再次寻到你 再次抓牢你

你现在幸福吗?

为你流泪

回忆……保留着,
未来……继续走吧!
为她滴下的那颗泪,就当是冲刺前方路的精神鼓励。

Friday, July 17, 2009

墨尔本的天空



再次让我回到属于我的地方,因为有你。
在遥远的你,我似乎已经慢慢地被遗忘,
感觉好像渐渐失去了回忆、忘记了快乐,丢弃了自由。
也遗忘了你曾和我一起欢笑、一起哭泣、一起过的日子。
你和我是否还心心相印?

让我再次回到墨尔本的天空……我想你。

Sunday, July 12, 2009

窝心

是不是遗忘了?还是昏迷了一阵子,突然又醒了过来?脑子里又泛起了涟漪,曾经失去过的,顿时想一再拥有,贪心的我。相像你就站在我眼前,个子高高的你,总是让我抬头望你。可是,能望着你的眼神,就是窝心。

Monday, June 1, 2009

无聊的一天

活动:家长日Parents-Teaching Meeting Session
地点:教室
时间:从早上八点坐到下午四点

工作:
一、无所事事,有空就用电脑,上网八卦一下,看影片。(同事们都不在!)
二、早餐、午餐时间,到AVA ROOM拿免费的饭盒。
三、阅读报章
四、和朋友通电话
五、和一般打工仔一样,对着手表倒数下班时间。30分钟前,到厕所梳妆打扮一番。

可取之处:无所事事,薪水照领

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Poison

'Even if a snake is not poisonous, it should pretend to be venomous.'
Chanakya quotes (Indian politician, strategist and writer, 350 BC-275 BC)

After discussing with a friend, we had come to a conclusion:

The singapore's venom is not as poisonous as the *****'s. Not all, but some.

It suddenly reminds me of a friend's post > 去跟蛇睡. (in hokkien)

又无语了

今天发生了一件超恶心的事情,肯定了我们之间的距离。我只有一句话对你说……“认识你不久,我却时常给你添麻烦,你一直都非常‘爸爸‘地训我唠叨我,我真不知道该怎么‘报答‘你。”

和母亲大人发了牢骚,她给我的安慰:“当他再数落你的时候,当他是隐形人。跟他一般见识,只会让你成为下等人。”
Outcome: 我正努力制作我的“笑面虎”面具。

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

无语

xx尊敬你,把原本不属于你的表演机会让给你,你却在背后插xx一刀,擅自作决定,安排了不该做的事。是否应该之前就和xx商量,尊重xx这位从头忙到尾的“隐形人”?你在无功无劳的情况下,得到了你渴望的光荣。可,你又安排一个这么糟糕幼稚的人,来“酸”xx,完全没有考虑到xx的感受,xx做事的原由,更没有尊重这位“隐形人”。还让他数落了我最敬仰的老师。无语……

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

虽是下雨天,却从不出现彩虹

我感觉到你的痛,
怎么,就好像昨天的痛觉
那滴眼泪,那悲伤的表情
心酸 冷却 呐喊
没人听见我

你,
就这样消失了吗?

我, 冷
我, 伤
我, 麻

我……我……无奈

几次,我想让你知道我还是关心你
几次,我想让你知道我的心属于你

但是,对着你
我, 就是无能为力
我, 就是死爱面子
我, 就是没有勇气

虽是下雨天,却从不出现彩虹