Recently, I felt a tinge of sadness. But I can't find the source of my sadness. Work pressure? study stress? or is it due to the departure of a really nice friend today, that I felt my life has sunk into a total emptiness.
Though my pretty lecturer told me that I scored the highest in my class for my grammar analysis at 7pm today, I don't really felt the kind of excitement that I would have felt if I were younger, perhaps. One classmate came to congratulate me, but I just kinda brush it off in an abrupt way. Maybe she will feel that I am being yaya papaya or super HL.
Actually, how long does one need to take in order to forget a significant event or moment in one's life? or rather, erased it totally. 3 years? 5 years? or never? If there is really such a drink like "wang qing shui", wouldn't it be nice to take a sip, and choose to forget selective memories from our memory bank?
Saw from a Singapore version soap opera, u take 3 years to forget someone that you had once loved so madly, and to find another person. 1 and a half year more to go... well, maybe that is crapped. it just depends on who you meet at the right time, right place and with the right mood. And a "clear, healthy" heart in order to "see" him.
My blog, like my mood, is totally messy. I don't know what I am writing. There seemed to be no linking of thinking. Perhaps that is what I am right now. Wanting to explode, but shy to. Wanting to be silent, but unbearable to keep it down. Women are really complicated creatures, emotional creatures.
Everything is hard, struggling so hard, and fighting so hard to achieve something concrete. And yet, it may not even come true.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
想你
将手心中的沙子交给你是一辈子的幸福。
还是沙子，依然是，再一次握在手里，但已找不到同样的故事，也遇不到能让我心跳的你。
想着你，我又徘徊到曾留下我们脚印的沙滩。不知不觉，手指又轻轻地在沙堆里比画。如果我把双手交给你，我们是否幸福一辈子？这是一道难题吧。谁知道未来呢？连我也不曾有过答案。虽然如此，我还是傻傻地喜欢着你。开始的一切都好美好美，每天都如蜂蜜一样甜。什么时候，蜂蜜加了水，越来越淡，我们开始疏远了……
念着你，我又好渴望能和你再次联络。不知不觉，我想再一次找寻你，滑鼠很多次都停留在那儿，不敢再点击你的名字，我心里还有疙瘩吧。我晓得未来的事，我们之间已经有了答案，就是断讯。虽然如此，我还是傻傻地喜欢着你。结束的一切都好酸好酸，每天都如酸梅一样，时时刻刻，都难入口，越来越酸，我和你路人甲和乙……
想知道你现在在哪？我的心还荡漾着，我的爱还停留在海风轻吹的那晚。你给我的回忆都好美，好幸福。我不想忘记，更不想失去。你现在在世界的哪个角落呢？是否还是同一个星空下？放不下，真傻！我和你还是松开了双手，握不紧的沙子，就让它从指缝中流走吧。
还是沙子，依然是，再一次握在手里，但已找不到同样的故事，也遇不到能让我心跳的你。
想着你，我又徘徊到曾留下我们脚印的沙滩。不知不觉，手指又轻轻地在沙堆里比画。如果我把双手交给你，我们是否幸福一辈子？这是一道难题吧。谁知道未来呢？连我也不曾有过答案。虽然如此，我还是傻傻地喜欢着你。开始的一切都好美好美，每天都如蜂蜜一样甜。什么时候，蜂蜜加了水，越来越淡，我们开始疏远了……
念着你，我又好渴望能和你再次联络。不知不觉，我想再一次找寻你，滑鼠很多次都停留在那儿，不敢再点击你的名字，我心里还有疙瘩吧。我晓得未来的事，我们之间已经有了答案，就是断讯。虽然如此，我还是傻傻地喜欢着你。结束的一切都好酸好酸，每天都如酸梅一样，时时刻刻，都难入口，越来越酸，我和你路人甲和乙……
想知道你现在在哪？我的心还荡漾着，我的爱还停留在海风轻吹的那晚。你给我的回忆都好美，好幸福。我不想忘记，更不想失去。你现在在世界的哪个角落呢？是否还是同一个星空下？放不下，真傻！我和你还是松开了双手，握不紧的沙子，就让它从指缝中流走吧。
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